hapi bdae to my gorgegous peipei

Before I start on my nonsensical entry. Gona wish my darn gorgeous PeipEi a hapi birthdae. Hope tt you're reali touched by the photocollage. Reali nice ritex? heheh. =D

alright. A cranky dae, it has been. Haha. Wusn't reali myself todae. Haha. I m NOT usually cranky d horx. hmm. Lessons were ok lah but I wus feeling rather slpy fer the whole time. Heh. Todae is the last day of my translation course!! haha. So hapi!! todae veri funny la. the lecturer tried to hynoptise us n Peipei juz fell aslp lorhx. She wus caught on video! haha.

Tried to distract Peipei while flor n leen went to get the nicenice collage fer her. But ended up, I kinda fumbled n nearly gav the show awae. Opps. Hw blur can I get? hehehx. N susu n cassie were luffin their heads off at me. sobs. oh wells. Peipei wus touched, i guess. How can she nt be? haha. Its reali nice lah. Went lot one fer dinner. Felt kinda bored after eating. So Peipei suggested playing sum sort of couple game which tests ur understanding of ur partner. haha. So me n my hellmate paired up. Leen wif flor. n cassie wif susu. alas, the questions all reali jialat. esp those asked by peipei. Me luff till stomach nearly cramp sia. N we were attracting quite alot of attention ther. guess we were ABIT too loud lah. haha. but veri fun lo. my hellmate juz rawks!! heex.

oh ya! one sad thing of the dae!! the icecream man is gone!! stupid principal. Whu said icecream is unhealthy?!! Mite as well take awae the vending machines. Aiya. Close the canteen lah. Oh ya. Mite as well ban eating. wat the hell. I HAF NO ICECREAM TO EAT IN SCH FRM TODAE ONWARDS. tts reali sad, kays? =( argh. hate the principal.=(

tml is the dae! wahahaha. hmm. tts nt an evil luff. its my crankiness acting up again. I m worried too ok? ppl r expecting me to do well fer chinese. i wana do well too. perhaps i shld go into hiding if i dun get my aim. hah. Worried dead rite nw. Wish my dear is here to hug me n make me feel better..=/

`i reali miss u..

Worn out.

I m sosososo tired. Had a pretty long dae todae. Feeling darn worn out nw. Sobs. I reali need my dear ard, to lend me his shoulders to lean on. hais. oh wells. Had two tests todae; both of which, I din study at all. haha. *shrugs* tts lyke.. emm.. nth new? heh.

PE wus rather exhausting. Esp when we r playing under the scorching hot sun. I tink I am sunburnt.Hmm.. Yea.. U din see wrongly. I haf gotten sunburnt. Whu saes tanned ppl cant get sunburnt? Blehx. I m one living proof. =P Den, left sch wif Peipei, whu wus darn worried abt me. Hah. I wusn't goin to cry lah. Juz tt bcux the sun wus too strong, thus, my face wus darn red. Hah. Chatted abt sum stuffs on our wae to lot one. Peipei treated me to my fav flavour of bubbletea n we continued chatting at the foodcourt. N tts wher I saw Js n gang. Peipei thinks he's cute! *ster!! see?!!* ha. his gravity-defying hair is so funny la. But I'm used to seeing it le, thus I dun luff upon seeing him ard, unlyke whenever I see Christopher walking ard wif his small backpack n his badminton racket hanging at the wrong place. haha. Its a real funny sight. Really. I really din mean to luff d. =P haha.

Two more daes to the release of A lvls results. Tink I'm getting back my chinese n proj wrk results den too. haha. Kinda looking forward to it. hmm. Am praying fer my dear seniors, shawn, peixi, samuel korkor, etcetc. But they're reali smart. So yarh, dun even tink I needa worry fer them at all. Haha. I shld worry fer myself, i tink. Hah. Just wish tt ther will b sumone ard to share my joy/disappointment den. hais.

Beginning to worry alot fer my common tests now. argh. shall start studying after tml. Mug hard, I shall.=)

`i m missing u alot.

hapi bdae to Peipei *my gorgeous hell mate*

random-ness

Wus staring at my econs hwk sum moments ago. Now online chatting wif desmond. Juz feel lyke blogging. Din do much stuffs at home todae. Wus either practising on my keyboard.. or eating.. hah. Growing fatter ler. argh.

oh wells. hah. Had a bad dream this morn. hais. Can't help thinking abt it. The sense of inferior-ness n fear of losing him is back. duno why. *shrugs* He's the best thing tt eva happened to me. Its the first time, i eva fell so deeply in love fer sumone right frm the start. But, all these feel lyke a dream. Really. He's too good fer me lerx. sumhow, I feel that I can never be good enuff fer him. I m a lousy girlfren, wif the imperfections n all. hais. if given a chance, I will choose never to wake up frm this dream.

Common tests are cuming le. But, I dun feel prepared at all this time round. Duno how am I goin to survive thru a lvls. Feel lyke goin back to the lib to mug. i miss sum of my lib frens. miss the security guards. miss the peaceful environment. miss running fer seats. hah. tink i mite pop by soon.

Tink I am juz feeling stressed out. haha. Sorry if I'm not being myself lately. Will cheer up soon. Gona go slp le. Tml's goin b a long dae. hais. `stay wif me please.

juz a stupid random update.

Its been a long time since I last blogged here. Kinda miss this blog. Too bad, I can't find my old blogskin. argh. sickening. ahh wells. this is meaningful as well=)

Hmm.. Juz gt a sudden urge to blog here. Cuz most of my memories r here. whether hapi or sad. Ysd, I wus browsing thru; gt reminded of sum memories. sum so dear to my heart, sum yet so heartwrenching. hais.

Recently, I juz feel so stressed out. argh. this is my first encounter wif such a case. N sumhow, the emotions tt I am goin thru right nw, seems so familiar. So familiar to wat I haf been thru during my last breakup. *shrugs* I duno why either. Perhaps, its cuz I reali do treasure her alot. as in, I reali do treasure all my frenships d lahx. My tearglands haf been overly active recently. Haven been crying fer so long le. Nt tt I miss the feeling. haha. I dun lyke to cry lah. haha. but juz feel tt if I juz kip deceiving myself tt I m really ok when I m not at all, I will end up feeling much worse. hais.

Seriously, I am shocked at such a situation occuring in my life. I haf nv had such a prob wif ane of my frens before. Nv before. This is juz so weird lahx. Its lyke.. its happening fer no obvious reasons. I hate such cold wars. Its torturous, stupid, n reali hurting. argh. todae, after the klaz's celebration fer susu, I juz stoned in the canteen, refusing to eat, cuz I reali din haf the mood nor appetite to. shocking uh? hah. *shrugs* leen wus probing la n asking me if I m goin to leave things as it is. I duno why. but, tears juz automatically welled up. *i m nt pms-ing! hah* argh. JS wus near my area, I din wana cry in front of him again, I ran to the nearest toilet, wif leen chasing after me. In the toilet, she wus trying to comfort me, but no use d la. all the worse, I cried. ha. told her to leave me alone fer sumtime but leen wus worried abt me. hah. nt as though I'll kill myself or anething. o.O" juz needed sum time to calm myself dwn lo. hah. hmm. Am pretty ok now. =)

`I juz wana b hapi.